Updated: Jan 19
Psalm 139:1-12 (NIV) - CLICK HERE to read the full passage.
Psalm 139:7-8 (NIV)
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
Proverbs 18:24 (NIV)
One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
This year got off to a bittersweet start. I was overjoyed to spend Christmas and New Year’s celebrations with my new husband, but over the Christmas break I discovered a small lump on my right breast. I went to my doctor and when she found another one on my left breast she immediately referred me to the local clinic for further investigation. This led to the last two months of ongoing appointments and tests.
While waiting for tests and the subsequent results, it's been easy to get bogged down with “what if?” The battle with worry is one I am still learning to overcome and the waiting period certainly forced me to exercise my faith muscle.
God has been teaching me to trust Him in facing the unknown. I remember laying on the table during my ultrasound and my biopsies feeling God’s presence reassuring me that He was with me in that hospital room. It reminds me of a song written by a friend of mine called “So Close.” The second verse says, “In Your arms I am safe; all the fears of my heart are silenced. In Your love I am brave; Your delight is the strength of my soul.”
Because Jesus is my constant companion, I don’t need to worry about “what if”. He is outside of time which means he is already in my future. I just need to focus on today… on what I’m called to do today… on what I’m grateful for today.
To be honest, I really don’t know how people face these tough situations without Jesus. The Truth of God’s Word, plus hearing my husband, family and friends pray for me was the best comfort. Do I still struggle with fear? Yes, but prayer and God’s Word have given me the courage to continue moving forward.
I praise God that my test results came back benign and the surgeon decided she didn’t want to continue with plans for an excise biopsy. I am free from doctor’s appointments for the next 3 months! I know that regardless of test results and doctor’s reports, God is with me in the storm. He will never leave me nor forsake me.
COMMENT BELOW: What song has encouraged you? (You never know, I might end up featuring that song in a future YouTube video!)